Wishes

I wish I could be content with small things,
I wish I could ignore irrelevant details,
I wish I could block this damned instinct,
I wish I could be illuded more easily,

Oh, how I wish I could just once and for all to be somehow satisfied.

As it appeares

apparently there is this feeling that makes one think about a certain someone often enough that it can be mistaken for the breath we take to keep us alive
apparently there is this longing that makes you both sad and happy, restless and peaceful, excited and calm
apparently there are thoughts that race through ones head that can never be explained in just a few simple words
sometimes a world of appearances can be good

Reminder

Today I was reminded that I should free myself from dependency
Last time I was reminded of that I was nowhere ready
This time I am freer than last time, because I feel more detached, more at peace, less afraid
But will this be lasting or just the long walk?

Reality check

When reality hits you over the head you feel stupid, a perfect idiot
How can insanity take you so hard?
At least there are no permanent damage to carry throughout eternity

What was I thinking?
Clearly I wasn't

I have been told

I have been told you're bad news
I have been told you're not to be trusted
I have been told you're selfish
I have been told that in the end you'll make me miserable
I have been told to brace for heartache

I have read that all that fall into this trap feel as I feel
I have read it is wrong, wrong, wrong, no matter what I tell myself
I have read that I should wake up

I feel more and more that I want out
For the first time only because I am not happy as I think I should be
For the first time because I'm thinking of me before you

I have been told eventually I would grow up...
Is eventually coming up?

And

And I cry and laugh, and I cry and I smile, and I still don't know why!

Stupidity is numbing...

What to do?!

No games, no rules, just us.

I've been told, and today I believe

"O valor das coisas não está no tempo que elas duram, mas na intensidade com que acontecem. Por isso existem momentos inesquecíveis, coisas inexplicáveis e pessoas incomparáveis."

Fernando Pessoa

Thanks Y.

Free?

When you want bondage, who can set you free?

Les racines sont importants

Alliancestars - Cette nuit

Yeah, I know!

Stupid in love - Rihana

Não são maneiras!

Foda-se!

Merda!

Porra!

Sentir alguém assim não faz bem a ninguém.

New love (what else)?

Jazmine Sullivan - Lions, Tiger and Bears

Keep guessing

If it is based on a lie, how can it be real?

Second guessing is so annoying!

What am I now?

Baby

Honey

Love?!

Is there anything beyond? What do you do when you cannot get promoted any further?