Past, present and future

My present past is killing my future... or so I think.

The idea I have of me and how far I've come does not match the idea of others on me. And I am not sure if it is unfair, or if it is just the past catching up with me.

I feel lost and I have no idea where and if to run.

I don't even know if it is fair with myself to question the self so much.

I am also not sure if the image is fair, or if it's just a clear result of not wanting to take crap, not pampering anymore and not accepting unjust expectations or evaluations.

I don't want to hate myself or who I've been... It gets unpleasant after 30 something years of the same thing.

Oh, I wish I were an island. I hate people!